ok. my first post. i have a lot of stuff i need to get out. and this is my place to do it. this is where i rendezvous. why 'rendezvous' as the title of my blog? first of all, i love the way it sounds. secondly, i love the way it looks and spells. i love words and this one is one of my favorites. when i first saw the spelling of this word, i fell in love. i know. i'm weird. but that's me. a weird word-freak. thirdly, this is where my mind, body and soul meet. and i want yours to meet here too. comment. about anything. i will, that's for sure. please don't look at this blog with a critical eye. it's scattered and strange, sometimes it will be optimistic and happy, other times you'll wonder why i don't just shoot myself and put me and you out of our misery. yeah. i can get that bad. but mostly, it will be honest. i'm going to be honest.
so, to start out, i've become jaded over the past couple years. i don't like who i've become. i'm cynical. cold at times. i just don't like it. so i'm on a journey to change. to become more like the softer person i used to be - before life bent me over. i've lost my will to move, act, become. but i can't stay this way. i need to move, act, become someone my daughter will think is pretty amazing like i think my mom is. and if not amazing, then pretty alright.
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